Tuesday, March 6, 2012

给不懂自己的想法的你。

如果你没有一个确定的想法,我会感到有点烦哦。你的想法和决定如果会影响到你和我的感情,我真的很无奈。有时候你不懂你自己想什么?当我好心想提醒你,你就会很坚决的拒绝了我的好意。我不是故意知道你想什么可是我就是懂你在想什么而且又想要有什么。你可能觉得我是自夸,我又是会那样觉得。可是你还是有权选择不相信的。不勉强的。
有时候你说的话,答应了我,我很想说服自己去相信。因为对我来说,相信一个人是一种很简单的快乐。不是因为你我才会快乐的。虽然说快乐很短暂,可是我就使享受那短暂的快乐。快乐很简单吧了!但是你就是一次的一次让我的短暂的快乐的泡泡就在一瞬间消失。还是要怪你吗?之前会怪你。可是习惯了,就麻木了。而且也不可能期望你会进步,不喜欢嘛我走掉咯。没有什么事的。我不是在逃避,只不过看不管你的做法和想法。觉得很有趣可是不是我觉得我可以接受的程度。
提醒你不是因为想要跟接近你。是要让你知道,你最需要的是什么。我不会也给不起你想要的是什么。因为你就是对我没有信心。对我来说,那是其次。最重要的还是你要懂你要的是什么。你真的不用试着了解我。因为你自己都不了解自己了。不是小看你。只不过你可能需要多点时间来学习认识自己。如果你选择相信我,我可以试着帮助你。因为,如果你是需要一个人帮助你,你需要选择相信他。
一切都是你来决定的吧。把自己关闭起来,对你没有好处的。我还是可以选择离开。因为我不喜欢那种感觉。你来决定吧你要的是什么。路是人走出来的。我不会阻止你要走的那一条路。可是就想提醒你,我还是愿意帮你找回你自己想要的。麻痹自己或者压抑自己是让你更痛苦的人生。你就好好加油吧!人生终究是你的。我不要插手也不要让你担心我太了解你了。多多保重。

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Just want to be myself

I believe i can't be others and I also don't like to be others. I just want to be myself. Who like to running, practice taekwondo, reading, watching movie, visit the bookstore alone and many things that I like to do. I will change myself one day not because want to follow others foot prints but just from their foot print told me that something that I never know.
Obtained the experience from others and make it become my guide in the future is like a torch light or candle that can make my way to become better. I know I must become better that now. Stop giving myself that stupid reason. Talk it and make it become the truth. Simply talk will not helping at all. Change myself with my hand and my foot.Create my own foot print for myself.
I can make the decision where should I be. Not all the time I need a decision for simple things. Small things give it to me, big things you decide if you have that opportunity. Just because I do understand give a chance to listen to others not because I don't have the ability to afford it. Just because I want become better by listen to others opinion. I am the decision maker in my life. Nothing can change my life if I don't want to change it. And I do believe I want become better than now so I need gather all the opinion of people surrounding me to let myself to become better. So sorry for those that I learn what you have from you without inform you. Just because people surrounding me all have their skills for living.
Could change or not, is my decision. Let me be the one that i should be cause I just want be the one who can change the world with my decision to make the become better. Make everyone happy without pain. Improve poor people life. Educate those really need to grow.

JUST WANT TO BE MYSELF. BE AHBOY WHICH WANT STAND IN FRONT OF THE EYES OF THE WORLD!

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

~自已为是的爱情~

  很想你,可是不懂你也会和我一样的想念你吗?会不会我们彼此的想念对方。虽然很少听你说你会想我,不说可能不代表你不想我吧!认识你有一段时间了吧!会是我们的缘分吗从那么远的距离都可以认识彼此?我真的搞不懂。可是就是想自已为是的很懂。
  很傻吧?还记得第一次听到你的声音,那是情人节那一夜。你一个人独过,没有我的陪伴,我知道你很努力不让我担心。那时我多么希望可以和你度过认识你的第一个情人节。你没有说因为你比我还要勇敢和坚强。遥远的爱情很累,可是你从来都不曾对我说你想放弃。你真的很勇敢和坚强。虽然说到最后你想离开,那时的我真的很伤心,我真的哭了。那时真的很认真在想,是否我真的做的不够好而让你放弃了我。我真的想放弃你因为你想分手。很幼稚吧?自已为是的爱情就是如此。很自私因为从来没有为你想过是什么原因你提出分手。那时候,你的道歉,对我来说是多余的。开始有点恨你。我就是不懂你明明知道我恨你可是你有很努力在关心我。
我知道我那时的态度真的很差。可是你就是很有耐心和细心的关心我。虽然说那时候你说过要复合,可是我就是笨和幼稚,根本没有真正的关心你和了解你。很多时候想过我们的远距离的爱情之间到底会有什么结果。可是我总会记得你说过,不要想太多,最重要的是我现在还在一起。谢谢你一路陪我走来。当我心情不好时,总是有你的信息和关怀来支持我。可是我就是什么都不做不好当你需要我的时候。
爱情没有输赢只有自己觉得应该值得不值得为一个人等待吧了。就算到最后等不到你爱的人很爱你的人,只少不是所谓的自已为是的爱情吧!不要当自已为是的傻瓜,只要当愿意为你等待的笨蛋。爱情里不需要天才,至少可以为爱情当个笨蛋。好好过着我们现在的生活,为我们的未来而努力!我会好好的想你,你也要好好的生活。可以想念一个人就代表我还可以思念你。

Monday, May 16, 2011

What make you think you a runner?

Just want to sharing the knowledge that i gain from a book and experience from my mentor. To become a runner, everyone have a five stages to go and the last stage is runner. First stage to become runner is the beginner. Beginner will just start involve in the road with slow and easy to stop. And it take time for the Beginner to develop or switch his/her mind to become a second stage that is the Jogger. Beginner take time to become a Jogger. Most of the Beginner who don't put the pressure on themselves seem to have an easier time staying with it. They simply walk or jog for 30-40 minutes every other day, they find themselces gently swept along in pattern of relaxation and good feeling. when the Beginners start addicted, and is the time he/she develop to becomes a Jogger.

Jogger feels secure with running.Rarely does jogger have a plan or goal. Most run a healthy diversion and don't feel the need to get anything more out of it. They just get out there when they can and do what they can. They might pick out some running tips from a more experienced running friends or ideas and unfortunately,it also the reasons to make them suffering of the injury cause the plan are no based on the jogger's own individual abilities. Jogger might go for the running event with the distance no longer than 10km. Even they no competitevely or for time improvement, a sense of competition may begin to develop. There are always injury due to the running plan and running technique will make the Jogger give up the running completely but usually they will start again after an extended layoff.

Competitor is the third stage to become runner. They start planning when they have their own goal to achieve.After a few races,Jogger begin to wonder how fast they can might run if they really trained.Here is the begin of the frustation and pressure. The competitive spirit is exciting and rewarding so it will make they run faster because of increased training. They will start seeking the information about the training, stretching, nutrition ,etc., and become somewhat of an expert on each.Occasionally they will run alone, but often they will seek out small groups or better runners to train with and fint they are making every workout a race; they will puch the pace to "Victory" or make others earn theirs. Once the competitive spirit has taken over the tend to lose sight of limitations. They begin wonder that small mileage can increase brought about a small improvement, and they will try large mileage increase to gain a large improvement. Although they read many times the need for rest, they feel that theirs is a special cases that no need as much recovery time as others mortals. For weeks they may feel tired most of the time, yet have trouble sleeping at night. Finally they push too far and break down with injury, sickness or fatigue, and either can't or don't want to run. At this point may feel betrayed by their body. Here they are trying to mold in into greatness and it won't respond. And they only can visualised the fitness that their train for few months slipping away,the goals going down the drains. If trying to make run through the problems, it will leads to the worse condition and new injuries and make them miss the very races they push themself so hard. And hopefully learn the lesson fromt the past. This time, experiencing some frustation and pain can help them to realize their limitation.

The fourth stage of become runner is the Athlete. As an athlete, they find more meaning in the drive to fullfill their potential than in compulsively collecting times and trophies. They finally got a handle on competition, and it's not the only motivation. Competitors search for races they can win,Athletes look for competition, but are no intent on a higher ranking or better performance. They thrive on a challenging competition that is run in the best way possible-from the inside put and they are, not incidentally, rewarded in the long run by faster times. Though once may have been a competitor who read everything and tried most of it, as an athlete they now read only what has practical value.When problems arise they look for literature on the subject by authors they trust. They reading ties into an overall plan and no longer sampling everyone's tips and tricks like treats out of the cookie jar. Planning is important. Although they are flexible,plot goals and race 6-9 months in advance. Whether they plan is written or "programmed" ,they know where they going. They may not known the exact vehicle they will take,but they know they can arrive. Athletes are not prefectly consistent. Sometimes they will slip back and become a competitor. After a series of success, they may become dissatisfied with performances that fall short of their goals. Some of them might be give up and quit and retire.Many continue to grow and move into the final and most rewarding stage, the runner.

Runner, the final stage of the running journey blends the best elements of all the previous stage. The runner balances the elements of fitness, competition , training and social life and blends running with the rest of his or her life. Running is now a natural part of their daily program- as is eating, sleeping or talking. They know them will get in the daily run although they may not know when. As a runner, they will enjoy the companionship of running with others, but most of their running will be done alone. Great statisfaction comes from being able to mold their body into form, and there is an art in combining just the right amounts of strength, endurance, form and preformance training. A race can be the opportunity to pull out deep hidden strenghts. Once they have learned these things, the joy lies not in the race, but in the running. Occasionally the runner is injured. They will sacrifice workouts,races and time goals to heal an injury early and get back to 100% as soon as possible.

As a runner you experience the enjoyment of each stage and retain the best of each of them. You relieve the beginner's excitement in disccovery, appreciate the jogger's balance of fitness and enthusiasm, share the competitor's ambition, and internalize the athlete's quest. Having consolidated and balanced all these stages, you appreciate the creative and positive aspects of each and let them enrich your running life.


Reference: Galloway's book on running and advice from Edan Syah..

Monday, January 17, 2011

Between You and she

You and she,both are my friends. Is true that i know she first then i closed to you. But from the first time that i met both of you in the same place, i interested on you. I found the opportunity to get closed to you but you look like tried to keep distance with me. She came and talked to you cause we a assigned on the same section. Start to know each others and getting closed. Only two days together with you all and on the same time i also is the new comer.
I wish to know your name on that time but you refused to let me know what is your name. After one month that i wait for you to come back here and you at here now. I felt glad that can have your phone numbers even though i no get it by proper way. But at least i no stealing the number from others cause you a the one show it to me. Thanks God give the that opportunity.
I like to see the way u smile and laugh. Eventhough i know u not that happy on that time but u always work hard to come over your feeling. You a great girl. I willing to accept your strengths and your weakness.But i lack of the responsibly and can't give the commitment it should have in relationship if we are together. I don't know is true or not that you a in relationship but my selfishness told me that you should single and available cause to make myself have a opportunity to with you.
I want to work hard together with you and tell you how much i can love you. But i still wonder can i be that good and have the commitment with you? Mind you work hard together with me? I will take the opportunity to tell you that i like you so much and wish to have you to company me to success. I willing take out my bad habits only to be with you.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Never think can get rich or multimillionaire without work for it..

Well, who never think to get rich as easy as they can? May be some of them can be that lucky which can the thousand million in a short moments which make them to become millionaire. But never think or aspect that u can be that lucky. Perhaps to work smart and work hard for it.
I write here is no to spoil or interrupting others business which might help themselves and others to become rich. But is the truth that nothing is free in this world. We should get the pay or money that we deserve to have. And most of the time we will think that we deserve have better payment. Is't we overestimated of ourselves or confident with the performance? Most of the time, it was.
I still study and no yet start my career in the field that i interested with. I hope can get the opportunity for the career. People always said that working with others or under company can get rich or have high salary. I strongly believe it. But want to get rich, the don't have any shortcut such as can get earn money by without work hard and work smart.
Just one thing that we should always keep in our mind that is we want get rich, the best way is we should have a better way to manage our financial. Spending the money with better planing otherwise it just can become wasting money. Buying the stuffs that you really need it and can afford the price.Regular saving through your main income is important than everything. If able, please settle the money that you borrow or owe from any organisation or individual.
Just remember that if want get rich, there are no any shortcut for it, please always thankful to what and who ever help us before. Don't waste the money.

Friday, September 17, 2010

Anonymous Baby

Suddenly, you smile to me. I didn't who are you. But i know is my pleasure that you willing smile to me. My friends know you. And myself also interested with you. May be through your smile, my heart stolen by you. You pretty enough, kind, friendly and many characteristic that i know about you. I understand everyone have their weakness also. I like your smell, your voice, your kindness and your patient.
Unfortunately, you no belongs to me. I didn't know what between us. Only best friend or just a simple friend. We don't have much time to spend together. I always want catch your attention even you right beside me. I want know everything about you. Sometime, i felt really want hug you so can make you felt safety. But i don't know who actually need someone hug. My heart told me the one need others hug is myself. I have egoism that i know clearly.
I would like to approach you but my mind stop me to do so. Cause i really need time to think it wisely to avoid i hurting someone that i really care about. You present in my life is the gift from GOD but i don't have the luck to have you. Can sit next to you and hug you and your smell make me felt relax. When with you, i can leave my problems away from me. Is really miracle.
I loved but i know i can't with you. Cause i realised i don't have time for you. I can't that selfish to make you wait for me. unfortunately,i gonna leave, to somewhere i also don't know to catch my dream and to success. I have the spirit and mind to success. I'm felt tired at all when i think about you cause i loved. I wouldn't let others know you are and only me know the secret. You ar my anonymous baby that left your love to me. I appreciate what you gave to me even for now, i got nothing for you. Wait for the day come, i will reply what you should have from me.
If one day when you feel that you think of me, please tell me. I know and understand that may be for you, me only a stranger. But no necessary to give me advice to leave you cause i also can't do anythings when i never felt tired loving you. I just can said thanks a lot to present in my life. Thanks for your love. Is my pleasure to have you.